When I was a little girl topics involving being psychic were taboo. Even though my whole family showed signs of having their own unique gifts, we didn’t openly discuss it with each other. So when I was seven years old and I started feeling people around me but couldn’t see them, you can imagine how that freaked me out. I didn’t feel safe in my own home. And I didn’t feel secure enough to ask for help. So I did the next best thing, I shut it down.
And we do that, right? When something is too overwhelming we try to put it away in order to survive. When we are uncomfortable and don’t understand what’s happening to us we think it’s better to shove them into the back of our proverbial closet and ignore them. As children it makes perfect sense. We don’t understand how things work and we feel so small in the world. Survival becomes our number one goal. The issue is that eventually we grow into adults that aren’t honoring who we truly be. We fall in line, play by the rules set before us, and try to fit in so no one notices our “weirdness”. But eventually those kept secrets start coming out of the closet. They want to be acknowledged and will not stay hidden much longer.
That happened to me right around the time I turned 28. I started feeling things I couldn’t explain. I would hear voices, I would see lights in the corner of my eye. I remember once when my son was just weeks old I went into his room to get him out of his crib. I felt someone walk into the room behind me even though no one else was home. I realized it was his great-uncle that had passed away just before my son’s birth. He had never gotten to see my son and I felt like he wanted to meet him. Yes, it scared me but I also knew we were safe.
When gifts decide to open there’s no stopping them. And it isn’t because something is wrong. It’s because it’s who we really are. It’s our natural blueprint coming online after being denied for so long. It came onto me so quickly I didn’t know what to do with it. I was afraid but curious. I resisted it at first but eventually I just surrendered and fell into it.
With surrender came guidance. With guidance came the path of teachers, mentors, classes, and books. I devoured everything I could on the subject. I began to realize that what I was, wasn’t scary. It wasn’t something “bad”. It was natural. It was my gift. From that moment, as I accepted who I was, it was as if the floodgates opened and my intuition grew beyond what I thought was possible. I gave readings for fun and for practice. I started meditating and working with my Chakra System. I delved into pastlife regressions and the Akashic Records. I did anything and everything I could get my hands on to help me understand who I was.
Then in 2007 I started my spiritual business, giving readings, working psychic fairs, and conducting classes on various spiritual topics. I was in love with my new life! I felt more myself than I ever had in the past. Finally it felt as if I was aligned with my true being and not hiding from it.
After all this time I’ve come to realize that we are all gifted. We each have something very special about us…our own magick. The intuition that we hold within us is unique to us. And that is the beauty of it. It doesn’t have to fit neatly in a little box in order for it to be valuable. It doesn’t need to look like everyone else’s in order for it to be true. And anytime we try to make it fit a certain box, well, we’re just not being ourselves. It’s ok to be a little weird and different. The world is begging for your magick!
I’m grateful for who I am and how my intuition works. It has amazed me beyond what I could have ever imagined. Rather than try to limit myself and “be what I think a psychic is”, I’ve learned to stay open minded, trust my guides, and see what happens. That simply intention has afforded me the adventures of being pleasantly surprised and the gratitude for being able to support others in the exact manner they need at that moment. I never want to limit who I am. And you shouldn’t either. You are magickal! Your intuition is beautiful! Let it show you who you truly are!
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